Here I sit with a sleeping baby Rumi; just having pulled the first card from a deck I bought when pregnant with him. The deck appeared at about the same time that he told me his name, and these beautiful cards have sat unopened until now. 8 days after birth.
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Wow, what a ride that was. This kid is deep with mystery and creativity and lessons and love. I knew this; but to have him here, having orchestrated such a powerful birth as such a new human, is extraordinary.
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I’ve reflected on his birth for many hours of this first week; emotionally, mentally and spiritually processing the details. And the overall vibe which was: I did what I wanted, we did what we needed, we broke all the “rules” and it looked 500% different than I ever would have imagined. True beauty and grace. But humbling.
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The first card I pulled (today) was in response to the question: What is the predominant lesson, for me, right now, from his birth?
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At first the “Sacred Union” card seemed off (but really, they never are….ever….just dig in a but deeper I’m reminded!):
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For me, now, this is not a message about physical love. The “Sacred Union” describes the divine masculine and the divine feminine coming together in perfect harmony, a perfect match and the perfect time.
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In birth work, there is and has been a conscious attempt on my part to integrate the masculine and feminine. It’s been driving me since Cove’s birth, and has practically speaking resulted in new partnerships and collaborations with the “masculine”; obstetricians, doctors, and hospital admin staff. There’s been so much “progress” in this way inside of myself; no longer willing to do the “us against them” or even be in fear about communicating or using the medical system. I’ve had such an awakening in this area, and I can see how Rumi’s birth has brought my heart and mind to new understandings now about what all that can mean and what it can actually LOOK like. In my rawest vulnerable state, I was the power I needed. I was the power I needed to be for myself, for my baby and to render the system itself actually useless in the moment. (Not to say I don’t have profound gratitude for the hospital and staff that morning! I do. But the actual “system” of birth was meaningless to us during our time there.)
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This IS the new paradigm; we can’t keep moving in fear as women around the system, and also as midwives, often operating in the shadows. If we aren’t confident and in our TRUTH we feel “less than”; “not good enough”; and this flavors our entire relationship with not just the medical system but the Divine Masculine.
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Because they are the same. And with birthing my baby on their hospital table, I let go. And this “Sacred union”, in my own mind and soul, was realized.
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“You have been working had to surrender attachment to plans and how you think things should go”.
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This is and has truly been Sacred Surrender. It didn’t happen without some resistance from me, but ultimately it was written this way and I have been preparing for a while without even knowing!
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“You are growing, you are evolving, you are making genuine shifts in consciousness that are allowing you to change the way you are in the world; to become freer, more loving, wilder, more Divine.”
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My lessons are my own; but in sharing his story on a mass scale, it is also yours. And ours.
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How can we not only “take back birth” but share the experience energetically when needed so that we realize this “Sacred union” within ourselves, our community, our world?
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Thank you for being with me. These are important times and I am grateful for the holding of space that so many have done for us. Love, Maryn

From the “Rumi Oracle” Deck by Alana Fairchild