You know how often you don’t know something for yourself until you hear yourself say it out loud?
I was in deep conversation with an aligned midwife sister today. Someone I feel I can be open and vulnerable with. I honor her. I honor the path she is walking, as someone that is actively attending women.
And yet I can see that my path isn’t diverging into that right now for good reason.
Anyway, I said something along the lines of….
“I will attend births again at some point but first…”
So many things came out of my mouth after that.
First, I need to heal from my own trauma STILL.
I need to learn more about what captivates me that isn’t birth. Somatics, the body, wisdom from the earth, channeling to name a few.
I need to gather the women in a different way; the right, resonant women that aren’t looking for a mother or a savior. I need to feel that energy and remember sisterhood (gratitude for my Magical Mamas for helping me with that!).
I need to be more open to the mystery and the awe. I need to be reminded of the wisdom and secrets that birth, and life hold.
I also *need* the world to change; although the only one I can be responsible for is me.
It feels to me like I need to open myself up. And rewire and re-member what it means to be a human in reverence of the sacred process of life.
I am not *just* a midwife (and there’s nothing wrong with being one, except that many don’t have the time/space/nervous system to support any other life process).
It’s a weird feeling if I am being honest. That feeling that you need to pause, regroup and reassess. Do not pass Go, do not collect $100.
(Kinda reminds me of birth; you can want to be at the point where the baby is coming out, but alas, you are not there yet).
This is one huge reason we made our Sacred Birth program. We know lots of you are feeling this way, and this draw to remembering.
The roles we play in life (midwife, mother, etc.) cannot be acted out in a vacuum lest we become weird, unbalanced egotistical versions of ourselves.
I love the women and the wisdom in this program because it is for all of us.
Check out the Sacred Birth Certificate program here.
oxoxo
Maryn
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